it's wasn't a bad month, neither was it a good one but it's the best month i've experienced through out all the years of my life.
there are certain things i've never imagined that i would go through, it comes unexpectedly then again it also went away silently. I still remembered how i prayed every night and my wishes were answered...slowly i stopped and my wishes never happened as well. June was a month of playing squash, if i hit back it bounces..if i stop the ball rolls on the floor.
june has taught me alot about myself, realising what i should be and determine how to be a better person. June made me realised there were so many opportunities in the past which i've missed. I've learned that anger causes no good but evil, a very hefty price to learn something which is so basic and often preached about. On the same week, my anger has took a toll on 2 relationships, for now...one has become slightly better..another has went on a different path. That night i was wondering, what if i have not put anger into my thoughts would everything be better, would we have maintained a jolly good relationship or it was fated for such to happened.
it's kind of pointless for me to think about it because damage has been done, i dont know how to make things work and I dont intend to pray for things to work out because what was meant to be will be. It's also a good start for myself to put things aside and move on with my life, i'm trying not to narrow my views into a single lane...life is a highway. There's more to life than to wait for a flower to blossom.
what is gone is history which is memories for me, i'm more than happy to keep the happy memories with me. Today i found myself smiling away the day, maybe somewhere inside i've begin to let go of whats not mine anymore, what we cant be means we will remain as friend. So dear friend, i'm moving on with life.. thank you for all the things you've done and said..i cherished the moments ;)
have a good life.