currently hooked on F4 ala Korean version, the plot is almost the same. It's differences is without guys with hideous long hair like a girl. it's nice to watch and all thanks to my colleague, Chris for recommending.

i told my family, aunty and cousin that i'll go for a swim at 8am last Saturday, and it's usual and expected to get answers like '' yeah! we will see'' because ...afterall i'm very good in procrastination.

well...i managed, though i was 20 minutes late but the first thing i did besides kicking the dog out of the room was to check whether the pool is clear. It was quite cold and windy when i was at the balcony for few seconds. i was thinking '' freeze to death or what ?!''  gleefuly put on my new purchased .....went to Arena, got 50% so what..can i forgo comfort level, not to say i'm stick thin or cucumber size..we are talking about wintermelon size! and i found out getting a swimsuit is also similar to getting a bra... ohmygod. Buy swimsuit also must makedo so many aspects.

back to swimming shall we...

yeah, it was blardy cold. dived in...first lap....i thought my family will have to claim my corpse from the managament office - i almost passed out because it was so exhausting.

For 1 hour plus...i only managed 5 laps only. the rest of the time i was floating and looking at the sky. terrible swimmer. My arms are aching now due to freestyle, where are the days which i used to swim 24 laps and feel nothing - oh...that was in 1998. dang. My next target is to the gym and tradmill and nothing more.

Did i mentioned after my swim this afternoon i chow down a piece of heavenly brownies and fish burger. hehe...whats the use of exercise hor ? ngek ngek.

Last Friday was a good night, went to 1u with Reiko and Amoi..had our super huge dinner at TGIF - promo set is worth every ringgit RM29.90++ but thats because we seldom dine in american restaurants. Watched Marley and Me, very dissapointed..was hoping to see more parts on marley but in my opinion it was tooooooooo focused on John and Jen's relationship. The best part was the last part T_T i like the book better

today is my off day, spend the whole day inside bro's room watching youtube (boys over flowers *_* ) and the plumber was at the kitchen knocking tiles and drilling holes. thats the end of my day....sighs

oh! trading in one of the old cars for a new one. Initially the father proposed Persona because it's a good ....it looks good also. Not to say i dont like it, i'm alright with it but after a tour in the showroom...it's quite a turn off :

1. monthly installment was way out of my ability, it's either i live with the car or i live without the car situation.

2. quite big la....

so now i'm narrowed down my choice, actually hor! i got not much choice also la. I'm getting Viva, i know how i used to say '' if i get Viva for 30k++ might as well i dump in another 10k for MYVI ''. looking at my current financial situation ... i dont have the power to call the shots. Laptop ? nah....forgoing that, can't commit adi ....T_T.

Car > Laptop   Laptop < Car  .... Car = Laptop = i dont have to eat, no incurance coverage, walk to work, no swimming no gym, family kick me out of the house..

There's a shop in Pandan Indah, Perodua car's rebate up till RM2k++.......nice!

anyway..... i'm dont want to put so much hope in it la. back to work..aiseh.

finally for the internet access!

this should be the 3rd week since we've moved to Kelana, so far everything is okie, access around Pj has never been so near and fast. I still have to get used to the routes, i've been taking longer ways to reach ss2 or Taman Bahagia because i'm still driving like how i drove from pj to subang.

i'm not missing subang at all, not many friends left staying there. Mostly are in pj and kl area. and the best part....i'm not late to work after i've shifted, it only took me 15-20minutes. Finally.

Last week was such a drama-rama week, we sent Goldie to JB last monday and through out the whole journey she was quite tame and quiet in the car. The moment we left her at a pet shop for someones care, tears are uncontrollable. The next day i gave that owner a call, she said once we left, Goldie kept sitting at the front door waiting for us to come back for a very long time, she tried calling her but Goldie did not respond, she tried dragging her in but Goldie refused to go in..she ate very little that night. The most heartbreaking part was, the owner said : she could sense you all don't want her.

I told the owner to tell Goldie we're sorry and it's not that we don't want her. After i hang up, i cried ...in the office while working. *paiseh*. That night, everyone at home was quite sad for Goldie, she isn't JUST a dog, she's a part of our family. So the brother and mother did something amazing and brought her back.  hehehe.

Every week at work is either a new heart-attack or something to learn. Last week was an end of a huge function, i did nothing much and owed it to those in banquet because those are the ones who've made it successful. at the same time, i don't get how someone wise and respectable to would nod his head over ...a plastic doll.

there are things i thought it only happens on TV but it turns out to be true and perhaps all the adults are right when they told us the world outside is different and true! I am still quite naive over things i've heard and seen, till now i still don't get it and ...never intend to bother much. it all about work everytime i blog huh.... skip it.

i've been working non-stop since January till now, This week onwards will be the last call, after 3 events and i'm going to spend some time resting my brains and feet. Since there's a a pool and gym, April will be a good month to exercise. First up, have to get myself a swimsuit and oMIloots!!!! how come swimsuits are so expensive nowadays ? made of fine gold and white gold is it ? pengsan.

and hopefully Marley and Me is still on cinemas so that i can watch, my last was Quarantine - i think the movie was last year. Last week my dad suggested maybe for next year CNY we would break tradition and go for holiday. And because of tiny winy suggestions, it has flooded my mind and made me ultra happy.

and the plan about trading in old cars for RM5000 also hypes me, maybe its time for charade. hmmmm, i heard to trade in for Perodua cars is in April, Proton is March. Few weeks ago, the mother said it's better to get a new car since i'm always back late from work, then she went on saying '' nowadays got some cars quite cheap, like Avanza. ''

my eyes almost popped, thinking AVANZA is cheap!? wah my mother might have strike a million euro lottery.  she repeated Avanza twice and i said to her '' meee, avanza from toyota cheap ah ?! ''  ....

she pointed at the car and said ....neh Avanza is cheap mah ...the car she pointed was a VIVA from Perodua.  ohMYmother.

by the way, where can i get a laptop with only RM1500nett, this is what i'm willing to spend, the maximum is to RM1900nett (abit reluctant la).

and again,not that i'm earning alot but there's so many things that i want T_T and i think i still have to pay for my life insurance due 2 months...dang.

how about ,i want stuff that i dont have to commit (monetary wise) ? nice!

even how busy i was in college, i still have time for some nonesense to scribble here and there, times are different now. Or maybe i just don't know what to say anymore.. because ...at times i felt like if i were to just voice out or to think about certain things would make me feel like a failure.

i think the best vocabulary to describe about myself now is : Failure. i felt like a loser and i seriously think everyone in this world even a kiddo from standard one is much smarter and better than me. I felt like i have lost the will to fight for my dreams, to fend for myself, to make myself believe that i'm not that terrible.

i've heard alot about people just shut themselves and live in their own world and i used to think why can't they just stand up and be strong. Now i could feel it and understand why, because it's quite an indescribable feeling.. if i am given an option too i would choose to shut myself away from this world. Perhaps i don't know how to deal with failures, i cried so much this year and i really have so much respect for those who are around me that are so strong, i kinda wonder how they do it.

God, if this is a trial for me, i've just failed and even earn myself a negative 100%. But God i'm not contented with my current situation and i hope this will not last long.

This week hasn't been all bright and smiley, my worst day was on Friday when my car broke down in the middle of the road in Summit. I purposely left home early at 6.45am to be at work and i ended up reaching at 8.30am. Things didn't just end there, thousand series of bad news just flow from beginning to end.

Yesterday noon was the breakdown; i reached home and just started crying because i felt i couldn't handle it anymore. While i was accompanying mom to somewhere else i just couldn't be myself. I'm very glad that she shared her point of views with me and her experiences too, and of course i cried some more.

Since Friday was a terrible nightmare from hell, i kinda felt that God has just dump me somewhere else to die, but i never thought of the fact that life isn't always bright and sunny, that God has placed people around me, that at times i have to learn to walk.

I have to admit that i very weak emotionally at this point, even right now i'm about to cry.

 

anyway, on a brighter note.

We've finally gotten our ''key'' to our new place, went over for major clean-up yesterday. Guess in another 1-2 weeks, we'll be able to move in FOR REAL.

My dad has found Goldie a new place and it is a confirmed one. The family loves dog and even has a male Labrador Retriever, however they lived in Johor but as long as they love Goldie thats all i care about. Hmm..Lab puppies perhaps ? :D

i think my last purchased of CDs or Tapes was 2001. I bought 2 CDs by Khalil Fong, a Hongkee born in Hawaii. I saw him performing in Channel V live and really love his style of singing. I have lots of respect for singers who composes their own songs -he is one, and currently he is one of the most popular singers in Hong Kong. i think he only sings in chinese. Purchased 2 of his albums and loving the calmness in the music.

thats all about it i guess..

 

pc and internet kaputed for a week plus so far, hard disc might have just died and there's nothing worries me more than the pictures in my pc. The last time i checked i had like 11gig of pics.

sighs.....

life has been alright so far, i'm running on treadmill trying to learn as much as possible. just very thankful for helpful colleagues.

the only thing that kills me is waking up early and still get stuck in the jam. What's up with the traffic nowadays ? Sometimes when i'm running late for work and i seriously think twice whether should i say i'm caught in a jam because from Subang - Sunway only takes 15minutes or so ? But how on earth could i take a minimum of 30-45mins to get out of this massive-irritating-senseless jam.

if i tell the ghost also wont believe la...correct or not ?

hmm..i guess we're only be able to move in by next month, since contractors and all are not working from this week onwards until end of chinese new year. which also means more time spend with Goldie.

anyway...gotta go back to work.. tommorrow is my evalutation -_- die la.... cest tout.

 

my new year started with no bangs or any fireworks, went out with ATMer's in Putrajaya thinking there will be fireworks display at 12AM.

Charlie and gang asked the police whether will there be fireworks and 3 different policeman answered :

SUDAH 3-4 TAHUN TAK ADA BUNGA API, KITA PUN TAK TAU KENAPA BANYAK ORANG GATHER DI SINI.

-_-llll

we thought of asking some people around us : eh , apasal you di sini ya ?

................................ this was our new year. hahahahaha.

Original plan was to join the crowd at the Curve for new year celebration, thinking about the jam itself is enough to kill you mentally and physically. thinking back 2-3 years ago when Reiko, Grace, Alice, Wan Ting, Michelle, Sung, Ivy and Chong was stuck at 1U parking lot for 2 hours - serious.

So we skipped our plan and thought of Putrajaya, instead we were greeted with police sirens and mat rempits'. ehe. With the power of Charlie's DSLR, we spend our time taking pictures and more pictures. But i'll always bear in mind - places with no jam = no fireworks/ events.

besides that, it was a good start of the year to gather with some of the peeps there was a certain point of time i almost lost touch with them. I think god answered my prayer too when i randomly asked Bill if he wants a dog and he said he loves dogs and he doesnt mind.

who knew i'll get an answer when i wasn't expecting one. thank god. It was also happy to hear that he feeds his 2 lil dogs porridge and egg everyday, most importantly he brings them for walks! With this, i'm very relieved that Goldie will be in good hands. Down side of it ? He stays in Sri Kembangan and i'll just have to waste some fuel to visit Goldie =) which isn't that bad also la.

2008 was indeed an eventful cum memorable year for me. It wasn't a bed full of roses, there were some down moments too which i guess it happens to everyone.

2008 has allowed me to accomplish what my parents and i wanted : which is none other than completing my degree, on top of that, now that i'm financially independent i think it's a major relief for them la. Till now i still couldn't believe how did i changed so sudden from a student enjoying life to working life, i think things come to you when you expect the least out of it.

2008 impacted my mindset about life, the country, savings, etc. it has allowed me to travel to France which i never thought i would be in million years to come. Through my father's condition i learned that life is too short to harbor at certain feelings and it's best to see things with an open eye and mind.

there are a whole LOAD of things that is coming thru my mind while reminiscing the year of 2008, moments...emotions...thoughts.

as of now..

2009..i would seriously want to enjoy life. I don't think i would want to tie myself 24/7 solely to work. I want to make it a year that i could look back in 2010 and go '' it's a good year ''. It doesn't matter what i would need to go thru for 2009 - i need something subtle.

2009 :

* i think my yearly resolution is to travel to at least a country or place . Amoi and Reiko talked about Taiwan in October, that sounds like a plan. Esther talked about Phuket or Bali in Mar / April..good plan too. But it all comes down to - money and entitlement to leaves.

* attend Yatty's wedding...this applies to the one above as well.

* I AM SO LOOKING FORWARD TO MOVE TO STERLING. hahaha.

* Losing weight - need i say more ? hahaha i think with the pool and gym in Sterling, i can, hope it's not in another 4-5 years to come.

* A stronger relationship with god, sometimes i really need to be strong and know that he is in control and not let my emotions running like chicken without head.

* Have good saving habits. Gosh! Sometimes i think i earn in pounds lo, really need to start saving or else my bank statement would look like longkang only. I'm trying to save at least RM800 per month, tho it seems little but it's alot for me.

* I really hope to see myself advancing at work, i want to improve and do better at work..it's a prove to myself in knowing what are my capabilities.

* I think i want to have braces on. sighs..talking about saving money.

* Spend more time with family and friends.

* I'm still trying to get myself to read a book. dang it, i'm the only one in the family that doesn't read. My dad does, my mom does, my brother reads alot.

me black sheep..beh beh.

I'm trying to save some money so that in future i could study bakery and get a cert. but this plan has to be put on hold for another 5-10 years from now. I hope it won't take me long la.


to be continue.... last but now least :

Wishing everyone a wonderful 2009 ! happy new year.